we thought she was on the up and up, but she looks worse, has less energy and is more naseous than she was yesterday.
she sits on the side of the bed, eyes closed, and says "sometimes i wonder if i'll ever feel better." she states it without selfpity or drama--that's not her style--but with misery and disorientation.
you will, mom. you will.
valarie
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Thank you for posting this blog. My parents just told me about Diane, and I need you to know that good thoughts and warm healing feelings are being sent from San Francisco.
There are good things happening every day and there are so many good people in the world making miracles happen. The power of positive energy seems to be endless. (and never underestimate the power of a good joke...)
I love you guys and please let me know if you need anything. I'm gonna think about some recipes.. my latest - macaroni surprise - didn't go over so well in the hollander-klinghed household.
I hate cancer! And I love Diane!
Enjoy every minute of her as I have enjoyed her. She knows I am too much of an active pest, so I don't want to bother. But tell her that I won't be at the SCBWI retreat either because I am traveling to Cuba to research Alicia Alonso, a strong woman like Diane. Alonso danced ballet even after she became blind. I love strong women!
Diane, be as strong as you always have been. Show us, don't tell us!
Abrazos,
Carmen "T"
You will feel better, Diane. That's how disease and pain work, if you want to be anthropomorphic: they grind you down because they never takes a vacation. They play with your head, inflicts fatigue and then convinces you your feelings of defeat are true feelings rather than fatigue-inspired (plus a few chemical reactions thrown in).
Against this, you have knowledge, endurance, family and friends. It just doesn't matter how low you can be made to feel. It just matters that you stick it out. No points for style, just for grim determination.
Time is working for you. You will feel better. I suspect the doctors have told you that your reaction is normal and expected.
I'm just sorry you are feeling low. But it will pass.
And those "agreement of subject and verb" errors should teach me not to add subjects mid-stream.
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